Not sure how much I can help. I will try to write a longer article response, but I am not sure when I can do that. For now, here are 2 thoughts:
- “You create your own reality through your beliefs about yourself and your universe.” — that is a spiritual truism that is true for most everyone.
- “You escape the matrix by becoming the matrix” — when you are your ‘outer ego’ you have no free will (you feel controlled by the matrix); when you become your ‘inner ego’ (or Soul), you have total free will. Are you willing to become your Soul self? See:

Every thing has value and purpose; Every moment is a synchronicity